This may just be a copy and paste version from a message I sent on facebook of what I really feel but it came from the heart and, to me, this is what it means to have true friends.
kay, so this will be the third time I write this out for you guys. But I think it's really important and you have to know. So, I'll type it all out for the third bloody time. Kay, so Justin is now dealing drugs so he can pay his rent. And as much as I'd like to say "I don't care" that's not entirely true. At one point or another he was a good friend of mine and it's hard to just sit back and watch him make the same stupid mistakes a thousand times in a row. I found all this out on Saturday and I was really upset about it up until today. And I know you guys really didn't care for him and I'm sure you still don't, but I haven't spoken to him since just after we broke up. When we actually started talking, that's all he wanted to tell me. I was like, "I could put your ass in jail right now, yannow that?" and he was like, "oh sorry, I'm kinda baked right now" WELL NO SHIT!! Anyway, like I was saying, I came to a sudden realization today and I thought I might share it with you all.
What if I had stayed with him? That's the question.. If I had stayed with him, I would've been hard into drugs, beaten up, probably raped and treated like a material item..all just to think I'm totally cool. To tell you the truth, I have no fucking idea why I wasted so much of my time with him and not with you guys. I wasted 7 months of my life with an idiot-childlike-drug-dealer. Goodlord. Another thing that would have (or should say "wouldn't have") happened was you guys. I'm sure if I was still with him, I wouldn't have you guys and for that soul reason I'm telling you this. You all mean more than the world to me and I'm glad someone told me what they actually thought. If I was still with him, I wouldn't have Jordan who is my bestfriend (after you guys) and even more to me. I'm so happy now that I can be myself around you and that I can ask for help, appologize, tell you secrets, fears, instabilities, and stuff like that.
I'm really looking forward to having the whole gang together and I really love you guys. Thanks.
kay, so this will be the third time I write this out for you guys. But I think it's really important and you have to know. So, I'll type it all out for the third bloody time. Kay, so Justin is now dealing drugs so he can pay his rent. And as much as I'd like to say "I don't care" that's not entirely true. At one point or another he was a good friend of mine and it's hard to just sit back and watch him make the same stupid mistakes a thousand times in a row. I found all this out on Saturday and I was really upset about it up until today. And I know you guys really didn't care for him and I'm sure you still don't, but I haven't spoken to him since just after we broke up. When we actually started talking, that's all he wanted to tell me. I was like, "I could put your ass in jail right now, yannow that?" and he was like, "oh sorry, I'm kinda baked right now" WELL NO SHIT!! Anyway, like I was saying, I came to a sudden realization today and I thought I might share it with you all.
What if I had stayed with him? That's the question.. If I had stayed with him, I would've been hard into drugs, beaten up, probably raped and treated like a material item..all just to think I'm totally cool. To tell you the truth, I have no fucking idea why I wasted so much of my time with him and not with you guys. I wasted 7 months of my life with an idiot-childlike-drug-dealer. Goodlord. Another thing that would have (or should say "wouldn't have") happened was you guys. I'm sure if I was still with him, I wouldn't have you guys and for that soul reason I'm telling you this. You all mean more than the world to me and I'm glad someone told me what they actually thought. If I was still with him, I wouldn't have Jordan who is my bestfriend (after you guys) and even more to me. I'm so happy now that I can be myself around you and that I can ask for help, appologize, tell you secrets, fears, instabilities, and stuff like that.
I'm really looking forward to having the whole gang together and I really love you guys. Thanks.
